Day 18 - Wonderful Husband

It's funny how much power such a small thing can have over life as we know it.  A baby turns everything upside down.  It's been hard...but it has reminded me how much I love my husband.  (Not that I didn't know already. :) One night last week we separated to hit the hay for the night.  Nate headed downstairs to zonk on the couch and I prepared for a night in the nursery. A few minutes after we parted Nate returned leaving me my cozy warm robe.  The thing I can't live without when I get up at night and have to crawl out of a warm bed.  I was too tired to remember it, but he did.  He had washed it, dried it, and made sure it was back to me for my night.

Even though Nate is sleeping on the couch during the week when he has to go to work, he is sleeping in our room on the weekend.  He does it so we can be together and so he can pitch in on the weekends.  It is so nice to go to sleep next to him.  It is so nice to wake Nate up to take a turn with David in the middle of the night.  It means I get a break just because I want to be done.

Nate has taken over so many things with the older kids since the baby came.  We have always divided duties pretty equally when it comes to kid care.  Homework, bedtime, stories.  Since the baby, Nate just does whatever needs to be done.  Even dinner...which is often neglected.

 Yesterday I was so tired in the morning I sat feeding the baby and crying.  In my mind all I could think was how the life was being drained out of me.  I didn't want to leave the house.  I didn't really even want to leave my room.  The baby is just so much time and effort.  I think it happens with every baby.  I feel a loss of the life I had.  No matter how little free time I had before...with a newborn I have infinitely less.   In the afternoon Nate took the baby from me and I finally went shopping.  Looking into a closet full of clothes that don't fit and are not longer cute does not help a postpartum woman recover.  ;)  A few new shirts and a pair of jeans that actually fit later I was feeling much better.  :) Amazing what new clothes can do.  I was still tired...but I no longer felt like the life was being drained out of me..little by little...feeding by feeding.  And...my husband never called me while  I was out, even though the baby got hungry and cried for the last little while.  I was able to have an hour and a half in which I was free again.  I told Nate I might need to go shopping every day for a little while.  He just laughed and told me I could as long as I kept my spending under a dollar each day.  HAHA.

So, thank you to my husband.  Couldn't do this without him...come to think of it...I wouldn't have had to do this without him.  LOL!